Desert rose

Dryland, wasteland, where nothing ever grows, except some palm trees and a little lake in far away oasis. A place from where you need to run like hell, otherwise it will swallow you and everything you own.

And suddenly you have the impression that you see something in the distance, something so pure, so marvelous, that it cannot exist. It cannot exist on earth and only angels could have seen it.

It is a small rose, a blood red one. So tiny and delicate, that any harder blow of wind might tear its roots apart and take it away.

You cling to this image and you start moving towards it, or finally you have the chance for something better than only sand and death.

And you advance bit by bit but the rose seems to be moving away from you at the same time.

The need turns to lust, the lust to desperation and you start running like your life would depend on it.

But the rose does not want to be owned, for fear that she might be hurt. And it vanishes bit by bit from your view.

The tremendous effort finally knocks you over and you fall face to the ground.

The illusions of her still remains though……..

Falling star

A few months ago I realized that I started to forget the names of the women in my life and the experiences we shared. The first thought that came into my mind was to make a list and to record them, with some short comments about what we lived together.

But then, she appeared in my life. Then I realized that she will not fit in any list, that she was the brightest star in my sky. When she appeared, I realized that everything I ever lived with anybody else was nothing compared to our pure love, the deepest sensations and emotions that we shared.

I knew from the first moment that I will love her till I die…and beyond. Nothing can part our love, even if the physical closeness could vanish at some point.

And it did. Like every falling star she disappeared from sight. My prayers I lay every night to the Universe is to direct her again into my visible sky, so that we will be reunited once again.
We had still so many emotions to share, so much passion to give to each other, so much love to dive into.

My heart hurts so bad as I know that I will never find peace without her.

I need her until all the stars are burned away.