A few years ago I’ve seen a movie called “Awake”, which was presenting a medical curiosity: a man was going through a surgery for a heart transplant and during the surgery he suffers an anesthetic awareness. So he’s feeling the entire operation. The pain he’s going through is excruciating.
I feel the same now for having left my soul mate. It’s like somebody ripped the heart out of my chest and burned it to ashes.
I love her more than life itself, but I could not stand the constant reminders about the fact that she is planning to have a child with her husband, just because I have a child of myself and she cannot stand that we are not “equal”.
Although we love each other so much, even if what we feel is beyond any human feelings, even if we have sex 2-3 times/day, every day, without feeling any monotony.
She will always be a part of me and I am so grateful to her for the happiness that she offered, for everything that she taught me, for being by my side, even for a short period.
I hope to meet you in another life, free of the constraints from this one.
I love you…..and it hearts so bad.
Cumandfornication 